well its been a while, been BUSY! goin camping with family, first time in about 4 years!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! very excited, as i grew up camping as a girl scout. it will be work with three kids under 10, but it's all worth it. just waiting til 5pm to get here......work is not where i want to be this friday. i should probably finish what i started on here, not sure if it will get done today though.
i left off at about age 6. well by then i was in 1st grade, but sp[ent most of the time at grandma's cuz mom had a new boyfriend and 'other stuff' to do. my grandparents were too nice, let run wild, literally!!
ok...back a week later to finish. well first off, camping was AWESOME!!! even though it rained we did everything we planned to do(s'mores, fishing, hicking, swimming, bbq-ing, scavenger hunts, bug discovery, late night campfires, etc.). it was soooo fun and i was extrememly tired on tuesday, but well worth it. back to my story...
i was 6yrs old and thought i owned the 'hood. i never wore shoes and ate meals at a different house every day. i was never asked "where are your parents?" or "why don't you have shoes?". when i think back, i was the kid that i would now be worried about and want to call child protection for. WOW. things you don't realize when ur young and have no worries, right? my grand-parents never cared if i even went to school, so of course a 1st grader is going to choose, fun outside doing what i want or going to school. needless to say, i almost flunked 1st grade, for only being there 30% of the expected days. by second grade i was living with mom again, now in a different apt, still with the awful, drug using, alcoholic, abusive and careless boyfriend. oh did i mention he now also wanted to marry my mother??!! this was not good! i might have only ever talked with my bio-dad over the phone twice in my life, but this guy was not who i wanted to be in my life. by the way, my bio-dad by this time had been in the state prison for drug charges the same year i was born. he had a 20 yr sentence due to non-compliance and escape while in jail. obviously i didn't know all of this un til i was much older. at the time i just knew that MY dad was not here, but that he was somewhere and that i sure as hell didn't want another one. one that abused little girls...his name will be burned in my brain for ever MICHAEL NAYLOR.
